This video was taken the first morning after getting a normal amount of sleep. Playfully waking and inviting all to come and visit us at 12567. :)

*** UPDATE - some decent sleep achieved!!! ***

Hi everyone,
Just wanted to give you an update.

We were finally able to get Michael to sleep for about 8.5hours last night! This is a huge improvement! It was a bit broken up, but still around 8.5hrs. We got him to sleep I think around 10pm and he slept till 4am when I woke and then he continued to sleep till 6:30. As for me, I must have joined him in sleep at around 11.30pm and slept till ~4am, so I got 4.5hrs last night, but I've been doing ok since I've been averaging 4-5hrs per night lately anyhow. In the past, I have engaged in some pretty calculated poly-phasic sleep patterns before that I usually manage with 20-minute naps, single cycle 90-min naps, and now breathing and mindfulness meditation. Food is a different story, but I am surviving.

I am so grateful to all of you for all your love and support. It gives me the strength I need to stay strong for Michael and all his friends and family and of course for myself. I am also so grateful that the pieces in my life are flexible enough to make time to be here for Michael. Like, besides trying to start up my music studio (www.gofundme.com/yeonhee) I am just working a flexible part-time job at Cinquegranelli Montessori as administrative assistant where my boss is very understanding of my situation. Gail Longo, is such a sweet, patient, and kind woman. I took Michael with me to work the other day and she gave us 6 hours of her time and engaged in such honest, meaningful, and difficult conversation with us. I am so humbled to be able to work with this wonderful woman.

Today, Michael has been much more coherent. He seems pretty much back to normal, but more open to talking with other people in the cute way he talks with me.. which is really just preserving beauty and staying true to the innocent soul and not putting on some kind of ego face just to be macho or something. We have to realize that we all have different social identities when it comes to how we talk with our friends, our family, strangers, lovers, etc. and that's how we relate to eachother. And by speaking a little differently sometimes, this is just him in his truest form where he wants to connect with others in a beautiful honest way. When we're alone-- Michael and I share some vastly varied English dialects. We go from pseduo-Asian, to Russian, to Indian, to where-ever pretty seamlessly and that's just a way that we connect. I mean, we are constructing a new language after all and so we are opening ourselves up to all the sounds of the world (trying to reach back to infancy, when we all had access to all the world's sounds) and for me, having studied linguistics and learned several languages, it's a pretty interesting way to explore language and meaning and heart.

I will be having him keep a journal and take pictures and videos of him so he can look to see that he is real and to help ground him. He has asked me to post some of these things to share with you all. So, some of that will be coming soon so you can see inside his heart.

He also welcomes visits from friends, because really-- that's what he wants the most. Real community. And love, which we define as shared vulnerability. He is sharing his vulnerability with you all now, and this is our opportunity to share in vulnerability back and respond with compassion and understanding instead of fear and shunning.

If you want to visit, just give me a text and I'll let you know if we're home.

Also, i think in the future something we will be doing is having open movie nights (open to everyone) at our home where we gather to watch a film very intentionally with the purpose of having discussion about the film (or show) after watching it-- to discuss the message of what we intake and the social implications.. because so many people mindlessly watch and intake ideas and concepts without realizing what affect they have on our perception of reality. Films, music, advertisements, etc.

Much Love,
Yeon-Hee

*** IT'S GETTING WORSE ***

Circumstances were that we couldnt go to swedish because they dont take walk-ins and the next appt is in march. i called a local shaman and she says that in this case he needs to even out a bit before doing shamanic work. We would like to take him to fairfax in kirkland, but i was told that they need a referral from psychiatry to take him in.. so i'm trying to figure that out. it's already past 8pm, so i dont know where to take him and i feel like ER is a bad idea. I think he could benefit from visits from people though.

Please, if you are in the area, can make it to Haller Lake area or have a free moment tonight.. please feel free to drop by and say hello.
Our address is 12567 Densmore Ave N. We live right next to the Haller Lake Community Club.

He likes gifts of spring water like crystal geyser, or there's also this water from iceland that you can get from rite-aid that comes in a square bottle that has really good pH balance that he likes. cant remember the name. He loves scandinavia and i think he'd love gifts of water or haribo gummy bears (extra juicy kind). Please feel free to stop by anytime.. even if it's just to leave a small token of love or flowers or what-ever on our doorstep.

One of our finest is hurting and reaching out for love and compassion. He needs good energy and grounding. We as a village must help save our people together. We may end up taking him somewhere, but this is our homebase. Thank you all again for your love and support.

***IMPORTANT***
Dear World,

Michael asked me to take him to a hospital this morning. Not sure exactly where we're going, but i'll keep you all posted when i can. I think we might be going to Swedish Medical Center - Cherry Hill Campus. Not sure if we'll be going to the sleep center or the sleep clinic and I'm not sure how long we'll be there or anywhere else, but I'm wondering if any of you live in that area near Swedish Cherry Hill, or have a parking spot I could use or know places with good energy nearby that me and perhaps a few friends of michael's can hang out while we're not visiting him at the hospital-- that is if we end up there. We may end up somewhere else. I have his mom and two close friends coming over so we can make a decision together for him.

The previous four times he has been to the hospital were terribly horrifying experiences for him, so it is scary to attempt to work with the system again this time, but we are trying to have faith like Russell Wilson did in the NFC Championship game that even after throwing four interceptions he was able to keep faith in their way and win the game on what could have been the fifth and most devastating interception.

Please-- I am asking for your thoughts and prayers and good vibes during this time of healing. I will update later when we know where he will be and how long he will be there, so if any of you want to visit-- you can. He is currently very open and vulnerable and could use any support that he can get. Even if you haven't met him or you haven't even seen me for a long time, if you say you're my friend, he will trust you and have deep gratitude for your support.

I am hoping that this fifth time will be victory, like what was embedded in Beethoven's Fifth---- 'V' for victory. Will post more later.

With deepest gratitude,
Yeon-Hee

Any advice for kidney pain for damaged kidneys during a time of sleeplessness? 


 — feeling concerned with Michael Kenji Chapman.

[January 20, 4:17pm]

My dear friend Michael Kenji Chapman has been struggling with a dangerous amount of insomnia these past four days. In his past, there have been four other occasions where he didn't sleep for up to a week straight (zero sleep!). This was a dangerous time where those closest to him were struck with fear and institutionalized him instead of helping heal him with love and compassion. He is very scarred by these experiences in his past, which explains his often dark outlook on life, but I know in sharing so much time with him these past 2-3 years, that he is a profoundly insightful, beautiful, gentle, and loving soul.

I declare, that I am not ashamed or afraid of dancing on the boundaries and limits of human consciousness with my dear friend and I WILL NOT let the system take this beautiful soul into their vice grips again. I simply will not allow it. I myself have tested the boundaries of sleep cycles before (in a very calculated way), and I am confident in my grounding and stand here today as Michael's protector and his lover, filled with with the fierce style of protective and caring love that only mothers have. How I can have type of love flow through me without having had a child is beyond my understanding, but it is real.

Now, Michael and I both recognize that he is at a dangerous tipping point where he is on the brink of what society would consider insanity and he needs all the love and support he can get! For me, I am unafraid and stand by him as his protector everyday because to me, insanity is really just a word for things we cannot understand combined with a very intense driving life-force energy. We as humans must accept that we are limited by our senses and perceptions, and this statement can be easily be proven by how the human eye can be tricked into thinking that static pictures are a smooth and moving when we put them in quick succession-- this is what we call movies, and that is why there is so much magic in movies.

A CALL TO ACTION:
*** If there are any real people left here on facebook-- I ask now, that you send Michael Kenji Chapman encouraging messages / wall posts / friend invites to help him feel support and give him peace and rest through this difficult time. Actually, I he should be able to see your messages of encouragement if you just comment here too. If you feel moved by this post, please feel free to share it on your page as well and pass the message along.

Helping people who are normally marginalized by the system is an important task that we must all undertake together for the prosperity and future of humanity. Love (shared vulnerability), compassion, and inclusion is how we as humanity need to address marginalized people such as those we label as "insane", "criminals", "murderers"and "deviants." We cannot blame and fear others, we can only blame and fear ourselves and our culture. So if we want change, we must change ourselves and in doing so, change culture entirely.

Michael and me, we are starting a social-movement called Inoqoa (or Inoqoa Alliance). For now, we will organize as a facebook group because we must reap the seeds that have been sown here on this platform, but our vision is much much bigger and we will be slowly sharing more about our movement in the near future. In short, we are leading an all encompassing social movement, counter-culture, alternate currency, and constructed language that is honest about power and revolves around the Seven Values of Exchange: Honor, Humility, Patience, Prudence, Kindness, Integrity, and Resolve.

More to come Thank you for reading.

Hello Everyone, 

This is a place where I will be sharing with you, the details of this journey I've been on with my partner and closest collaborator, Michael Kenji Chapman. We are collaborating on several projects together, and this one involves some of the music I've written, so I found it easiest and most appropriate to keep notes here for now.

I will be taking notes here as an journal and log for Michael Kenji Chapman as he recovers from his fifth week-long bout of insomnia. This is meant to help us keep a record of his progress, and for this to be an active way for us to share about our journey. Also, we plan to eventually use the content from this blog to create a documentary about sleep, insomnia, the power of love & compassion, the power of music, and our dreams to build a center for individual healing, and cultural renewal through the integration of community and  also including observation-based research and development of a kind of life mastery system that we will share more about in the near future.

We are currently seeking roads into collaborating with several different individuals and organizations with similar visions as us and we are hoping to create more bridges these people in the very near future.

Inoqoa: A shared vision of the future.